Becoming a mommy!

Ok well where do I start? Bryan and I had been dating for about 3 months. March rolled around and my mom made an appointment for me to get on birth control. Since I had just had my period which was really light and only lasted 2 days I didnt really think anything of it. Being pregnant was the last thing on my mind. So i start my birth control at the end of march well come April I didnt get a period so I was just thinking it was the birth control messing with my periods. May comes and still no period. So I go buy a Clearblue digital test. I didn't want to have to guess at lines. The next morning May 9th I start getting ready for school. It was the day of prom and I was kinda hesitant because I didn't want it to ruin my night if I was pregnant. I finally gave in and took the test. As I sat there patiently waiting scared nervous. I didn't know how I was gonna tell my mom! I look up and there it was...pregnant across the screen. I didn't cry quite yet. I picked it up looked at it wondering what I was gonna do! Then the tears hit! I was so selfish I didn't want this how could I be pregnant! My parents were gonna kill me! Bryan's gonna leave me all these thoughts were running through my head I couldn't think of anything but the worst! I pick the test up and go to my room throw it my purse grab my books and go to school. I was feeling kinda crappy so in after 2nd block I left. My mom was at work and I knew I needed to tell her but I was scared. I figured if I told her at work she wouldn't yell at me lol! I go to her work and she looks at me she knew something was wrong. I didn't say a word I took the test out of my purse and laid it on her desk. She just looked at me and hugged me. That was the biggest relief! Now it was telling my daddy! We held off on that for about 2 weeks. He didn't mad and was actually excited! Well later that day I go get my hair and nails done for prom and the whole time I'm thinking how am I gonna tell Bryan! Yes I still hadn't told him. He comes and picks me up and we go eat with all our friends. He of course knows somethings wrong and asks me so I tell him and he grabs my hand and tells me everythings gonna be ok! BIG relief there too! So fast forward to June I make my first appointment. I was 11 weeks 3 days when I first saw my precious baby! Thats when it became surreal. Thats when it finally hit I'm having a baby its not about me anymore.

So 5 weeks later I get an ultrasound to determine the gender. I was so excited! I wanted a little girl SO bad! Thats all I could think about is how much I wanted a girl. I never stopped to think about the babys health all I wanted was a little girl. When they told me I was having a boy I'm not gonna lie I was disappointed. HOW could it be a boy?? Yet again I was young and selfish to me a baby was a toy something that I could brag about. Boy was I wrong! Well about 4 weeks later I have another appointment. I get another ultrasound and everything gets quit the tech turned the screen away from me and calls for the dr to come in. At this point I was really freaking out I didn't know what was going on. Finally they tell me that it looks like something is wrong with his heart and that its a sign of down syndrome. They send me to a cardiologist about an hour and a half away. I get to this dr and they immediately want to to do an amnio I was so scared I heard all kinds of bad things about amnios causing early labor miscarriages. I was only 20 weeks so I refused. They did an in depth u/s it was prob the longest u/s of my life and finally they discuss it tell me that its just an over worked muscle and it should correct itself! What a relief! Never again will I ever care what the gender of my baby is as long as its healthy I don't care! That was the day we also decided that his name was gonna be Kaden Bryan. So fast forward again to November. I was about 34 weeks. It had been snowing so the roads were kinda slick. The car in front of the car in front of us slammed on there brakes and the car in front of us slammed on there breaks and Bryan turned his his truck to avoid hitting the car when bam the car pulls out in front of him! It was like instant pain! The seat belt tightened against my huge belly and I knew something was wrong! I started crying because it was the worst pain ever. The woman got out of her car and I'm pretty sure she was gonna yell at Bryan til she seen how VERY pregnant I was she freaked out and told him to get me to the hospital! His truck was still drivable so we drove to the E.R. I called my mom and told her what happened. She was at the grocery store and left a buggy FULL of groceries in the middle of the store to come to the hospital! lol We get to the E.R and they are packed. I go up to the window told the woman what happened and they immediatly rush me to the womens center. They get me hooked up to all the monitors start taking my blood and giving me medicine to stop the contractions. They do an u/s and Kadens ok but they decide to keep me overnight to just keep check. 

Fast Forward 38 weeks

This was right before christmas and I got to my appointment she checks my bp and it is threw the roof high! They try everything to get it to go down and nothing works soo induction is next. I was SO scared! I got induced on my 19th birthday. I go in they get everything set up and start me on potocin. Everything was going so smooth I was moving right along with labor and boy was I handling it like a pro! About 1 oclock in the morning I get woke up by this gush of water. My mom and Bryan were both with me so I wake her up and we get the nurses in and sure enough my water broke! Then all of sudden everything slows down. Now the pain was getting bad I cant't really remember my contractions but they were apparently bad enough that I wanted the epidural. So I get the epidural and boy was I in heaven after that! About noon the nurse comes in and I'm finally at a 10! They get my dr in and I start pushing. I pushed for an hour when finally.....December 29th 2008 at 1:00 pm at 7lbs 8oz 21 in long my precious baby boy made his way into this world!

This was the greatest day of my life! It was love at first sight! And now I have a healthy happy walking talking TWO yr old! Boy did those two years fly by!