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Ok so today me and Bryan went to eat lunch at this chinese place. I was fine when I went in there and fine the whole time I was eating. Then all of sudden I start getting this BAD pain in stomach up close to my chest were my gallbladder USE to be. I dont have my gallbladder so I know it wasn't that but thats exactly what it felt like! I told Bryan I felt like I was dying and I doubled-over in the booth it hurt so bad. Then just like my gallbladder pains it was gone.. WHAT could be causing this??

Oh my husband!

So Bryan comes home earlier today after taking Blackie to the vet. He goes back to our room and starts changing his clothes when I walk back there. He gets quiet and looks at me and says I had this weird dream last night. You were mad at me and I don't even know why? LOL I was like Bryan that wasn't a dream! bahaha! He didn't remember anything that happened last night but thought he was dreaming. How can I be mad at him? It was SO cute! lol I love him. He may be a pain the butt, but hes MY pain in the butt :)

One of those days...

So todays been a bad day from the time I opened my eyes this morning! I just want my own home! I can't wait til tax time so we can buy our land and then finally get our new home! By the time everything's said and done I'd say it'll be summer before its finished. I'm so excited to have my own space again. Of course I'm thankful my parents let us live with them but it'll be nice to be our own family in our home!  

Becoming a mommy!

Ok well where do I start? Bryan and I had been dating for about 3 months. March rolled around and my mom made an appointment for me to get on birth control. Since I had just had my period which was really light and only lasted 2 days I didnt really think anything of it. Being pregnant was the last thing on my mind. So i start my birth control at the end of march well come April I didnt get a period so I was just thinking it was the birth control messing with my periods. May comes and still no period. So I go buy a Clearblue digital test. I didn't want to have to guess at lines. The next morning May 9th I start getting ready for school. It was the day of prom and I was kinda hesitant because I didn't want it to ruin my night if I was pregnant. I finally gave in and took the test. As I sat there patiently waiting scared nervous. I didn't know how I was gonna tell my mom! I look up and there it was...pregnant across the screen. I didn't cry quite yet. I picked it up looked at it wondering what I was gonna do! Then the tears hit! I was so selfish I didn't want this how could I be pregnant! My parents were gonna kill me! Bryan's gonna leave me all these thoughts were running through my head I couldn't think of anything but the worst! I pick the test up and go to my room throw it my purse grab my books and go to school. I was feeling kinda crappy so in after 2nd block I left. My mom was at work and I knew I needed to tell her but I was scared. I figured if I told her at work she wouldn't yell at me lol! I go to her work and she looks at me she knew something was wrong. I didn't say a word I took the test out of my purse and laid it on her desk. She just looked at me and hugged me. That was the biggest relief! Now it was telling my daddy! We held off on that for about 2 weeks. He didn't mad and was actually excited! Well later that day I go get my hair and nails done for prom and the whole time I'm thinking how am I gonna tell Bryan! Yes I still hadn't told him. He comes and picks me up and we go eat with all our friends. He of course knows somethings wrong and asks me so I tell him and he grabs my hand and tells me everythings gonna be ok! BIG relief there too! So fast forward to June I make my first appointment. I was 11 weeks 3 days when I first saw my precious baby! Thats when it became surreal. Thats when it finally hit I'm having a baby its not about me anymore.

So 5 weeks later I get an ultrasound to determine the gender. I was so excited! I wanted a little girl SO bad! Thats all I could think about is how much I wanted a girl. I never stopped to think about the babys health all I wanted was a little girl. When they told me I was having a boy I'm not gonna lie I was disappointed. HOW could it be a boy?? Yet again I was young and selfish to me a baby was a toy something that I could brag about. Boy was I wrong! Well about 4 weeks later I have another appointment. I get another ultrasound and everything gets quit the tech turned the screen away from me and calls for the dr to come in. At this point I was really freaking out I didn't know what was going on. Finally they tell me that it looks like something is wrong with his heart and that its a sign of down syndrome. They send me to a cardiologist about an hour and a half away. I get to this dr and they immediately want to to do an amnio I was so scared I heard all kinds of bad things about amnios causing early labor miscarriages. I was only 20 weeks so I refused. They did an in depth u/s it was prob the longest u/s of my life and finally they discuss it tell me that its just an over worked muscle and it should correct itself! What a relief! Never again will I ever care what the gender of my baby is as long as its healthy I don't care! That was the day we also decided that his name was gonna be Kaden Bryan. So fast forward again to November. I was about 34 weeks. It had been snowing so the roads were kinda slick. The car in front of the car in front of us slammed on there brakes and the car in front of us slammed on there breaks and Bryan turned his his truck to avoid hitting the car when bam the car pulls out in front of him! It was like instant pain! The seat belt tightened against my huge belly and I knew something was wrong! I started crying because it was the worst pain ever. The woman got out of her car and I'm pretty sure she was gonna yell at Bryan til she seen how VERY pregnant I was she freaked out and told him to get me to the hospital! His truck was still drivable so we drove to the E.R. I called my mom and told her what happened. She was at the grocery store and left a buggy FULL of groceries in the middle of the store to come to the hospital! lol We get to the E.R and they are packed. I go up to the window told the woman what happened and they immediatly rush me to the womens center. They get me hooked up to all the monitors start taking my blood and giving me medicine to stop the contractions. They do an u/s and Kadens ok but they decide to keep me overnight to just keep check. 

Fast Forward 38 weeks

This was right before christmas and I got to my appointment she checks my bp and it is threw the roof high! They try everything to get it to go down and nothing works soo induction is next. I was SO scared! I got induced on my 19th birthday. I go in they get everything set up and start me on potocin. Everything was going so smooth I was moving right along with labor and boy was I handling it like a pro! About 1 oclock in the morning I get woke up by this gush of water. My mom and Bryan were both with me so I wake her up and we get the nurses in and sure enough my water broke! Then all of sudden everything slows down. Now the pain was getting bad I cant't really remember my contractions but they were apparently bad enough that I wanted the epidural. So I get the epidural and boy was I in heaven after that! About noon the nurse comes in and I'm finally at a 10! They get my dr in and I start pushing. I pushed for an hour when finally.....December 29th 2008 at 1:00 pm at 7lbs 8oz 21 in long my precious baby boy made his way into this world!

This was the greatest day of my life! It was love at first sight! And now I have a healthy happy walking talking TWO yr old! Boy did those two years fly by!

How my fairytale began...

I first saw Bryan at his schools Junior prom. I went with a friend of mine and she was friends with him and was talking to him while i shyly stood by lol. I didn't talk to him at the prom because he had a girlfriend but I remember thinking man hes cute! Well fast forward that summer. The summer before senior year. I was hanging out with my best friend and we had been swimming at my house when Bryan texts her and ask if they could meet up at KFC for lunch. She told him sure as long as she could bring me. He said sure. Well we were still in the pool so we get out put some shorts on over our bathing suits and head to KFC. My hair was a mess I had no make up on I was wet I was def looking a hot mess! Well we get there and their talking eating lunch and once again I'm just sitting there. We get up to leave and she gives him a hug and I start to walk away when he says I don't get a hug from you. (Bryan was a total ladies man and I'm not gonna lie he made me nervous!) So I give him a hug and we leave. We go back to my house and we're hanging out when Bryan calls Lindsay and asks to talk to me. I talk to him and he asks if I wanna hang out sometime well of course I say yes! Just you guys know Lindsay had a boyfriend so her and Bryan were just friends I didn't steal her man! lol So a few days later I go to his house and we hang out watch movies then he takes me home. This goes on for a few months but we never official start dating. I was pretty positive he was just leading me on and I was just gonna get hurt because like I said before he was a ladies man and we went to seperate schools so I didnt see him everyday. Fast forward to December I ask him if he wants to go out to eat with us for my birthday and he say yea. Well he comes to my house to pick me up and he gives me a present I open it up and its this gorgeous necklace! I was like woah and were just friends? We go eat and then come back to my house and hang out watch movies. It was getting late so he was getting ready to leave when he asks me out and of course I said yes! 

So thats how our journey began. Then 3 months later I get pregnant. Big shock but thats a whole nother story... Sorry it was long and boring but thats how it all started  :)

01-07-2010

I guess I decided that since everyone else was making blogs I'd jump on the band wagon and make one too. This is my first blog and I'm pretty excited! Even if no one reads it or even looks at it I'm still excited to have somewhere to write my thoughts and things that happen in my crazy life on daily basis. I'll also be using this blog to update my journey to expand our family! I hope you guys enjoy :)